telescope eyes

my comp is in as good a mood as i am!
bought many happy things.. all i need is a trip to borders!
i swear cutting hair is therapeutic.. i feel so lightheaded i feel as though i could fly..



this is slow, but still Y nonetheless!

p.s WORK SUCKS. hate the effed up lianlians.

PISSED OFF IS AN UNDERSTATEMENT, MOM.

Y

it seems like yesterday
that my world fell from the sky

it seems like yesterday
i didn't know how hard i could cry

i feels like tomorrow
i may not get by.

-

DaDinah ; sorryyyyy ._.

Rouge madness with em both &belle
d'oh.

freda&i : we Y school.

nothing in this world

is reciprocated,
like how i showered undying attention for Math but it/he/she failed me
but of course it's not just Math here that i love but
also them, whom i shall not reciprocated
and of course them whom i was not.

why i go to school partI



they won't see us waving from such great heights
come down now, they'll say.
but everything looks perfect from far away
come down now, but we'll stay.

/not gonna ask any promises from you anymore.

HAPPY 18TH TINGSIE !

you know i love you to bits and pieces

and shreds and strips

then i'll glue you back whole again (:

another year of not being there..(pipizz)

have a jolly good and safe one

(careful with the lexus and zebra crossings)
Y you alwayssss.

she is a cheerleader
i'm sitting at the stands

last day at school was :D :D :D :D
piccas ll be up when nette does her job AHEM HOPEFULLY BY THIS YEAR WOULD BE NICE
(kidding, lovelove (not really -stares daggers (ok but since you've been on my side, -pats pal)))
(too many parenthesises.)

despite endless caterwauling..
yes sa is lovable..regardless of location @Malan/ @PP
each had their very own memorable episodes (or climbing gates and SPORTYDAZE!)


-

what they said spawned this trail of thought and i'm beginning to think i was wrong about you.

._.

beware! the saint patriotism has taken over us by storm. do not catch the bug! being tagged would result in insane desire to reach school ON TIME to sing the school song for the last time (nevermind the fact we've never so much as hummed the song, much less know the lyrics), buy school foolscap paper, gorge school food and fly kite around the track.

WHO KNEW.

days ago we had HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BELLETANLIPING :D



sanity at 8teen indeed, eating flowers




Dinah's cam has bore this animosity against us since we were innocent Secondary 3 St. Nicholas Girls..


yesterday was Happy Children's Day
today is Hello One Month to A Level's Omg.

gentle reminder to how we're no longer kids..





& littlemisssunshine deserves a hundred and one popcornsss!
life is a fucking beauty contest.
life is also (: phonecalls, 5 girls i can't live without, forum and smu.

-

YOU GOT IT WRONG ALL ALONG
stopppp this atrocity!!

life is never fair is it..

dear Santa
i promise to be really good, sitting still and waiting.
please send me all my xxxxx s cascading down the chimney this december..
(and make them last.)

i'm falling in you're falling out

so nette and i bought TWO bags each for 90bucks! right?
just a lil harmless self deceit.


take me away

had always secretly harnessed longings to be packed into a bag and hide away in times of need.. just to feel safe for a while..
yea i know i'm a tad weird.

-

on replay; Displaced, Azure Ray.

-

yay, Meredith moved on
like, finally!

whitewashed.

finally caught up with my sleepppp
eyebags were ghastly and weighing down my sight and the world along with it
ohkay hyperbole.

-

weds @ phuture..
initial boredom
to fab drinks + fab music = outofstate highness = dancing like a 'filmsy' nut.
to supreme sleepiness after all that euphoria and psychedupstate and falling all over the place (secretly~~ falling apart -smashing pumpkins HAHA)
shouldve gone to find sammiekinss/ mambo for more sanity.

butttt
THANKS NETTEY PALSXZz AND PEARLLL..
reallyreally.
HUIYI DON'T TALK TO ME (kidding. pls brush up braiding skills <3 you nonetheless)



-

shoppingg w stephcheong's DA BOMB!
(: (say goodbye to gullible days)

dadeedoo+dinah : yess so jln kayu-ing or??

AND
EXCITING EIGHTEEN REE Y
im sorry about last night.. ._.
(yes i insist your fave colour is still purple)

-

sch's a blurr.
f-tupstate cannot be contained anymore
i hate my grades and myself
it's just hopeless pointless meaningless empty void
but still,
hit the books, wendy.
nomoretears johnson&johnson, yz?

Her favorite flower is daffodils

(newly won over Tim Burton fan)
i loved Big Fish for its inversions

factual and imaginative (there's truth in imagination..so there!)
tickling and heartwarming (yes, teary..)
beautiful and ugly
..


all spinning an entire web of morals unfolding bit by bit
i think its worth every single one of its nominations.. and more!
(:

or maybe its just really my kind of story.

p.s Josephine (played by Jessica Lange) and Sandra (Alison Lohman) are the luckiest girls in the world..

Josephine: You never told me how your parents met.
Will Bloom: They met at Auburn.
Josephine: But what about the details? How they fell in love. The cirus, the war - you never told me any of that.
Will Bloom: That's because most of it never happened.
Josephine: But it's romantic.
Will Bloom: Mmm...
Josephine: Mmm, what?
Will Bloom: Well, I know better than to argue romance with a French woman.

Senior Ed Bloom: You are in for a surprise.
Will Bloom: Am I?
Senior Ed Bloom: Havin' a kid changes everything. There's burping, the midnight feeding, and the changing.
Will Bloom: You do any of that?
Senior Ed Bloom: No But I hear it's terrible. Then you spend years trying to corrupt and mislead this child, fill his head with nonsense, and still it turns out perfectly fine.
Will Bloom: You think I'm up for it?
Senior Ed Bloom: You learned from the best.

Will Bloom: We have to take Glenville to avoid the church traffic because the damn church people drive too slow.

Josephine: I'd like to take your picture.
Senior Ed Bloom: Oh, you don't need a picture. Just look up "handsome" in the dictionary.

Young Ed Bloom: Has it ever occurred to you that maybe you're not too big? That maybe this place is just too small?

Young Ed Bloom: There are some fish that cannot be caught. It's not that they're faster or stronger than other fish. They're just touched by something extra.

Young Ed Bloom: There's a time when a man needs to fight and a time when he needs to accept that his destiny's lost, the ship has sailed and that only a fool will continue. The truth is I've always been a fool.

Young Ed Bloom: It was that night I discovered that most things you consider evil or wicked are simply lonely, and lacking in the social niceties.

Sandra Bloom: You don't even know me.
Young Ed Bloom: I have the rest of my life to find out.

Ed Bloom (Age 10): I was thinking about death and all. About seeing how you're gonna die. I mean, on one hand, if dying was all you thought about, it could kind of screw you up. But it could kind of help you, couldn't it? Because you'd know that everything else you can survive.



righto..enough quotes to flood the post. am off. hope tonight will be fun!

-


the epitome of change..
never anymore.

hormones
(otherwise pronounced as her-er-mo)




rainy dayss..
try not ter get pensive with uncoorperative mood yes

visits to town, bugis, haji, plaza sing, minds cafe,
off to woodlands and secretsxzs supplies (surprise) tmrw
plusplus a hopeful squeeze of zouk/mos

Ying the company
(and shopping bags of goodiess!)

oh books, foe-of-the-mo, long-forgotten!





arent these the cutestt..
my kind of eye candy (:

thumberlina says










pretty please..

but stars are blind.

(yes i secretly think her addictive debut track is nice.)

daily activities = pretence of me ceasing to exist as an a-level student
WHAT AM I DOING!!

but distressed state aside,
omg discoveries and reuinions with pals = (:
moreee please!
impending need to fulfill insatiable desire to watch movies (p square (pretty please haha) &prada soon! click+the breakup were good..but archetypal of their genre..) and ogle at cute stuff.
and the tv is beckoning me to every 'primetime' slot possible whenever im home. (jss! :)
+i really need to check out what's that boardgaming thing all about..stop calling me swak, stephcheong!

i might as well wave goodbye (-sings steadman) to university.

-

But here she is, all mine, trying her best to give me all that she can. How could I ever hurt her?
But I didnt' understand then. That a person can, just by living, damage another human being beyond repair.
Y murakami
(thanks c &sam for recommendation)

yes i'm reading novels when my eyes should really be glued to statistics and economics and sexual innuendos in Chaucer.

-

random.

fireworks.




rapture.






sigh. i really miss my tooth :'c
what a world of difference that lil hole makes. (and this is the cue for us to lapse into the theme of significance, physical presence vs void, tangible vs intangible ok monologue stop being lit psycho stream of consciousness writing?)


WHY? this is really random. dug it up from a long time ago. shocks, nette?


haha wting dont scream. we need to take better shots at shanghai06/07!! :D


another randomnity, missed! seeyou later dsf!

bye all
i need make myself a more productive being.


(haha dinah!)

the bold and the ugly.

(haven't done this in a long time so please pardon me, should any stray, lost birds fly this way by accident)

this is the last time.
that i will say these words
i remember the first time

-

are we bein selfish by wishin things the way we want them to be such that
if everyth worked out the way we wanted
and the people we wanted to stay with us stayed,
they would be deprived of the happier larks they are right now?
to tug at someones arm (many peoples arms then) and say 'im sorry i now kno how i've screwed it up' and 'pretty please stay and remember the way things were..
should end.

i guess we could all try to find our own happiness then.
till another time -

i used to think you could be my Unsuperficial
till secrets ate it all up and all that was left was the acrid taste of what insanely feels like betrayal (bcos it shouldnt be so) compounded in marshmellows..if only you knew but does it matter if it wasnt sustainable from the very first bite

i should learn to stop wearing my heart on my sleeve,
but then i would be trying to read myself like how im trying to read all of them (/us)


nothing lasts,
stop the naivety if i could.

there's truth in imagination..

..dreamyy.

((i wish.)

curtailment like a slap across the cheek


good night, sleep light, stranger/s.

night of secret behaviour..
secretly hurt.

On Hiatus!

(moving on to new beginning of wendy wonderland :)




\ 'Sleep away the years. Sleep away the pain. Wake up tomorrow, a girl again.'

radiohead; creep

so my lids started fluttering me awake at the odd hour of 6plus a-freaking.-m. which explains my blogging at the unearthly hour of 8.58 a-freaking.-m.

this really defies my normal human proclivity
(which is to instinctively shut my eyes and if required, pretend to be asleep for the next few hours or so when im actually just lying motionless in bed with a wandering mind (appearance vs. reality) so that my dad won't disturb me to go breakfast with him (evil, i know but the awkward talk about school and things he really has no idea about is unbearable) and i can revel in some extent of self-comfort that i am no freak and can sleep for a reasonable amount of hours after watching Argentina vs. Germany like a normal person would have (this is a very long parenthesis so please just skip this pointless entry should you be one of the rare lost sheep to stumble upon my blog which i suppose only holds rare viewership..which is something i particularly like)) and i tribute this all to talk about post A's with new shopping partner yestderday. got me really hyped up, all that sandcastles built in the air..haha.
and to add stones to this weighing discovery of myself to take in, i made my own breakfast!
(though i encountered some minor setbacks along the way, such as the obstinate lettuce which refused to hold my egg whites-and-yolk bits so i had to resort to stuffing the egg bits in my mouth then hurriedly take a bite of the wholemeal bread sandwiched with some lettuce. and as a result made a mess at the sink but thank god the black granite is shiny and dark enough to offset the contrasting shades of the egg bits so i could clean it up - it's spick and span now - such that my mom would not be in the know of the depressing failure she has for a daughter. oh and i think it was a tiny fragment of eggshell i swallowed. but that's about it.)

so anyway i went to my bookshelf and found I Capture the Castle - i'm pretty sure i borrowed it from some friend of mine but it had completely slipped my mind who what when how did i borrow it so anyway charm says its remarkable and she watched the movie four times and it was so good i should catch it too despite it being screened at 2.15a-freaking.m. on hbo last week. actually this is my third attempt to read it (i was immensely bored by it the previous times) and very strangely, it seems to be performing up to expectations thus far. worthy of recommendations indeed.

anyways. had a long entire weekend of shopping and gluttony activities planned out. yesterday's find with huiyi was fabfabfab. major guilt-tripping ahead. i need to morph into major nerd as soon as the clock chimes 12a-freaking.-m. to announce the dawn of Tuesday.
ohmy i haven't blogged such a long &random entry for some time.




i do realise i contain some profound ability to shock even myself sometimes.

alright. am off to leave my poddie to charge for the day and head back to the book or watch Pride and Prejudice before heading to zhong guo town later in the day. tada.


- 'contemplation is the only luxury that costs nothing.'

p.s miss the bestfriend major :c

she said, i think i'm going Boston
i think i'll start it over.



say hello to post bt2.

dinah, belle, me and da. and da &i, while the other 2 were busy with the roses..hahaha. the last pic is our implementation of..THREE LEAF CLOVERS! ._.

-


i wish people would stop telling me what i should be
i getting really confused.



and sometimes i wish you would still be here as my friend. just to be here for the whites the blacks and the in-between greys like you promised you would.





in dire need to watch mindless good chickflick (how can chickflick be good, you ask? read Twelfth Night and watch She's the Man).. yeayea i knw i wrote about high culture vs mass culture in my essay. and how the latter is debasing but .. we can all unearth this part of us.
okay whatever. rambling to myself at night.

happy birthday you June babies (ocular proof to my very flat and empty wallet)


too funny. acting strong. check out how apt the words on his shirt read. him and the girls present. you can just tell who skipped school.


angry me and scared c (resembling very much like a baby! hehe)


how much longer can a girl's arms get?!
are you tapping your feet to I'm Yours yet? qing huai kaui kuai. HAHA.


so HAPPY 18TH june babies!
(reiteration: y'all burnt holes in my wallet)

¬ to forget D. er gd luck for Chem paper that day you poor boy.


ohkay byebye
i need to go off and freak out about The BT2 & The return to school.

Three Names You Go By:
wendy. wend. dydytoe

Three Parts Of Your Heritage:
china. msia. spore.

Three Things That Scare You:
myself. vehement (or even the slight bit of) arguments. poor grades.

Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:
wallet (with money &ezlink). v3i. poddie.

Three Things You're Wearing Now:
err nightdress. specs. ear studs?

Three of Your Favorite Bands or Musical Artists at the moment:
motion city soundtrack. the lost prophets. the veronicas.

Three of Your Favorite Songs at the moment:
last train home. i could get used to this. when it all falls apart.

Three Things You Want in a Relationship (other than love):
security. trust. warm fuzziness.

Two Truths and a Lie:
i have 4 blue blacks and i don't know where from. my nails are the only part of me that i really like. i will tell my mom about it one day.

Three Physical Things about the Opposite Sex that Appeal to You:
what appealed might not appeal anymore, what did not appeal might appeal..but err ohkay..randomly.. hair. nose. face shape.

Three of your Favourite Hobbies:
doing constructive work (satisfaction differs everyday). eating. FRIENDS.

Three Things You want really badly right now:
ACE MY A'S. HAPPINESS. December (which holds a lot of things actually..tings' return..my birthday..internship pls..a good job with satisfying pay..many mambo nights..EOY trip with friends!! (&most imptly feeling fine with my A's performance so i can enjoy myself)).

Three Places You Want to go on Vacation:
LA (tings!). Shanghai (shopping!). any nice beachy resorty place (so we can walk and lie around in bikinis all day and get fab tan, Dada!).

Three things you want to do before you die:
to love and be loved (friends families blahblah). travel. job fulfillments.

fluttering like butterflies searching for a drink


/ keren ann; not going anywhere

i take buses and trains in the wrong directions and wind up back to a square one
i forget my wallet and prime belongings and end up dashing to and fro
i study midway and start wondering and fretting if i should be doing something more constructive
i habitually organise stuff such as planning out my days but allow them to be disrupted should anyone need to
i cut my hair and immediately wish they'd grow and conjure images of myself in another hairstyle
i enjoy silences coupled with physical companion but i worry all the time about the ennui the other party might be faced with
i kinda get lost doing the simplest things everyday

such as the meaning of this utterly random entry



days have been fine;
meeting up with people and struggling but failing to study
lazy to recount my days..

btw happy 18th c (:
hope last night was good for you! -winks.




if we keep swimming maybe this will never die.

cross out my eyes

Zouk was funnnnn :D
though the beginning was so stoned i had half a mind to wave down a cab, hop it and snuggle under my sheets at home buttttt staying wasn't so bad!
omg hy and nette, whenever i have flashbacks of us i want to LAUGH pls
what were we doing?!?!?!
as a matter of fact i'm laughing to myself now
._.
hilarious.
anyway c, hy, nette, me and yz had dinner at this .. Chinese restaurant @ Zion Rd with yummy side dishes (forgot its name..hy pls read it out again in your Chinese accent)

Happy belated birthday NewFound HWEEEEEYI
and an early one to you GF C!


studying with Ree in her room at my little squishy seat (with her baba's picture staring at me nonetheless ._.) looking like a PRIMARY FOUR kid, THANKS, is therapeutic. albeit the tv watching, chitchatting we had moments of silence (with strangely comforting scraping sounds of my pen, according to her) dedicated to STUDY though not a lot, cos we had to leave.
so anyway SABRINA WEE doubt you'd read this BUT if you do, meet up next week ohkay! location = Ree's again cos..yes.


i see vast whiteness in the sky and slanting raindrops hitting my windows..
why is it raining AGAINN.
sorry dinah and da in advance..gonna be late
not my fault!
hahah
we're watching She's The Man YAY!
Steph and everyone else have been singing praises about it endlessly
who else to watch it with but fellow 3/4Charity Twelfth Night study counterparts?
haha. TINGS youre immensely missed.
hope you're having a blast in Shanghai - yes i know she can't blogspot there but anyhoo i thought of you (: rmb how we discussed our lit texts with such genuine interest..now i look at Othello and want to puke. grr.


rawr. not studying enough.
the palpable air of failure is getting stronger each day and yet i revel in this futility!
bad, very bad.


anyway was watching Riding In Cars With Boys (hope i got it right) yesterday
was bawling my eyes out like a retard
4 popcorns!

so amidst all the exuberance
know that everything in life is such a bloody facade.

lifehouse; all in all
i love Motion City Soundtrack!

daytime tv says:
GOODNIGHTS GF!

daytime tv says:
HAHA YES IL ZHAO GU YOUUUU

daytime tv says:
I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU


:D
HAHAHAH
awww.
made me smile!

cut my fringe,
i look like a baby.
URGH.
what's new. hate fringecuts.

i could get used to this.

floodin back as the song plays and the grays color the screen.

-


studying with the girls @ TeaParty days back


nette c me hy
@ random roadside attempting to take looming car lights behind us BUT the traffic light was blooming red ._.


hy c nette and me performing vigourous neck exercise ._.
@ island creamery.

just realised i take most photos with these girls!
cos only they happen to take photos, haha.



'HIT this! I need the money.'
'The horn is broken. Watch the finger.'
hahah car bumper stickers.


caught dad's idiosyncracies while stayin in on this rare Saturday night
getting quite amusing..
plus the old man (sometimes you can only doubt his age..he looks and behaves like a boy. what is with males around me..) caught the World Cup Fever.. literally..
tagged by the bug after stayin up a night for the very first match,
resulting in mom reveling in endless mockery
hahah.


attempting to have a proper conversation with Huang Weiting is as hard as two girls surviving on S$4.80 @ majumall (StephCheong we must rmb to bring money tmrw!)..but i digress
MISS YOU ANYHOO! (: cant wait for you to be back!!


sky has been awfully teary recently..
hopefully tear ducts will be unfluffy tomorrow,
we're heading for a dip in the pool and hopin for rays.

SIGH.
much to study.
been nothing short of a slothful slug..

who knew

somebody tutor me Money for Econs please.
i can't pay cos i'm really confused with Money.

ohkay not funny.
i love OK Go.
urgh.
study turmoils.

/stereophonics; dakota
/OK Go; oh lately it's been so quiet

but today i'm fine without you

there goes my 3 days of
mad rush at 830 in the morning
endless smiling (i've never smiled so much in my life. but it wasn't ache inducing, surprisingly)
act-kiddy voices and conversations ("you want to mum mum?? aiyo. naughty girl! what's your favourite colour? wow! you have a pet rabbit? what's its name?" just to list a few off the top of my head)
running around and bending down constantly
free YUMMY food (sugar cupcakes DIY popiahs chocolate marshmellows etc)
wiping of snot, washing of hands a million times a day (at least i didn't have to pee a boy HAHAH -looks at c)
& little Claudia running between and hugging my legs HEE. (ought to upload a picture of her, the cutest darling with the longestestest lashes!)

we must do this more!
much more fulfilling and :D than randomly standing around town asking for donations (or rather, just going to Darrenn's house to watch Spiderman)

communicating with people of different ages differ vastly from people around my own age..

with kids you're instinctively willing to give and give (do i sound like Silas Marner yet) and you don't expect anything back - a simple smile or nod makes your day THAT much brighter.
with adults they don't judge you as extensively and there is little awkwardness. silly auntie-taitais are quite funny. haha.
everybody just hangs loose and be themselves.
what a total 360deg turn from a scene in the cafeteria.

shall scoot off for tuition soon..and more study seshs to come over the weekend
- back to the reality of a 17 year old about to face the harshness of the dreaded A levels..
but on the flipside, there's sunday tv on starworld to look forward to..haha.


all the small things.

stopppp.
oo. i ssim eht semit ew dah, hguoht i t'ndluow timda ti, dna i rednow fi ouy od oot.

o1. i finally understand Money (i think)

o2. on the other hand, lost touch with Math. so much for years of attempting to be his (i insist - Math sounds .. chauvanistic) best friend. OR i could be talking about something else.

o3. i love family of crystal jade (think CJC (haha), congee, xlb, mango pudding, shui jiao, la mian blah)

o4. kids are a bundle of joy - if you have that bundle of patience and attention span (omitence of love is due to fact that i hardly believe it is enough for anything anymore.) NOT THAT i don't enjoy volunteering.

o5. i can hear my dad watching soccer. yay cable just got installed! (slow, i know.)

o6. 'pirated singers' have good vocals. poor things.

o7. you scare me - a perfect epitome of radical changes within minimal time span.

o8. motorola can actually be more lovable that nokia.

o9. i love taking the bus at night. sometimes i look at the rows of people's heads before me and wonder what bubbles from their thought bubbles. i hope i don't sound psychotic haha.

1o. NEVER attend another underage party EVER.

p.s slow, but THANKYOU dinah and belle for very sweet SMILE (: chocolate banana icecream and UNemo talk. very Friendly Friends. ooh pun-ified. hahah.
& stayoverability (HAH! and you think it cant get any longer) + flying chicken oil. haha.

a space between the boyfriend

say Hello Holidays
and to the delighted and proud owner
of polished teeth
and the new motorola v3i maroon !

it's a new beginning
of new Ys, i just know it.


but if i don't come back
then i won't look behind me.



totally taking a self-imposed and undeserved lil break
before i get down to some very hopeful-to-be-materialised serious studying!

and to all those who were there,
you know who you are; punching away faithfully at your mobiles/ trying to make me laugh/ getting me to talk about it/ volunteering your various services
thanks (((((:
you've all been such angels.


Before you met me I was a fairy princess
I caught frogs and called them prince
And made myself a queen
And before you knew me I'd traveled 'round the world
And I slept in castles
And fell in love
Because I was taught to dream

I found mayonnaise bottles and poked holes on top
To capture Tinker Bell
And they were just fireflies to the untrained eye
But I could always tell

Cause I believed in fairy tales
And dreamer's dreams
Like bedsheet sails
And I believed in Peter Pan
And miracles, anything I can to get by
And fireflies

Now before I grew up I saw you on a cloud
And I could bless myself in your name
And pat you on your wings
And before I grew up I heard you whisper so loud
Well life is hard and so is love
Child, believe in all these things



steph &i : WE Y THE OC SEASON THREE!

in retrospect.

about regrets -
i've never been one to look back and think : damn, i should've done this instead of that and blah,
but this year has been one that holds much pain for all those spilt milk.

i wish that all seventeen years of my life
i haven't given up all that i was passionate for and better in,
that i had my priorities right,
that i was a better friend, daughter, student, lover, companion,
that i was better to myself.

and i know how pathetic it seems to be sitting around and get all pensive
which is why it gives me much (: to say that i promise myself that would the last thing i will allow myself to do

because all the wrongs that i did to myself,
i owe myself this much
to get things back on track again

it'll take so much
and it'll be such a slow process
and i know i will fall and feel like giving up
but hope is an instinctive impetus inside all of us living here

may we all not lose it.





or maybe we will realise we won't need this anymore -

happy 18th, small one.

jiang would've said 'supplies!' (surprise)

what does it take to get THIS through,
they keep welling up.





cause time has a habit of slipping away

Out on a clear blue sky,
when lighting strikes on a sunny day,
just take me in and keep me from the rain,

words.

me &charm : WE Y SHANE !

me &huiyi : hello sunshine. flattering yourself and make it sound like we're dying to wait..?

weekends



saturdays ago, @ coffeebean. me (ignore aunty hair), hy, yz, nette




blurrrrr = actually very weird. yz, then me $ hy.




saturdays ago again, @ dxo. me (ignore gross Chio Strands causing me to look like i have short hair), hy, charm, nette bottom.




last saturday, @ timberlux flea. me (hair finally looking normal) & hy.



me (ahh! eew!) with new top and c, i love!




sorry, just HAD to put this. flower in my hair? no. pretty clip for 3 bucks? yes.


(:


(note; unglam shots strictly disallowed by all members of photography thus no sights of 'Shoves Shoulders' but really very eww shots, charm's RED face (thus no hilarious pic of random mat doing a hi-5 jump in background), feifeiness and many other mockables.)




(note: JiangTzu missed.)
(notenote: cutting hair soon.)

Literature / Economics DIY

Due to fluctuations of the exchange rate system, speculations and expectations cannot be made because of decreased business confidence. Thus, 'hot money' capital inflow is rapidly reduced/ diminished, leading to decrease in Demand for country's currency and depreciation.




laced with dramatic irony,
it's more than what it seems

i did at least some homework,
did you?

where is your boy tonight i hope he is a gentleman.

in this repetitive revelation of epiphanies,
we stop and blabber.

i screw things up and when it dawns upon me this blanket of dread towers over me, threatening to envelope me within it and never let me see a miserable streak of daylight

to those i have completely undeliberately but undeniably hurt, today i am renouncing the thousand apologies running marathons in my head -

school is a mess of laughter & silence, effervesence & fear;
i am like you too.

if we keep swimming maybe this will never end


but as for other reflections; to myself i keep
i know you want to know but what is the use when
to you
it isn't
comprehendable?

i like to think it otherwise,
but deep down i know
we'll never be what
we want each other to be
me and my blind surmise
trying, learning, proving; to show
you could be my avant garde -
i really just can't leave.

even though i will myself to, sometimes.



the teachers have been drilling us, and it is so true -
it's not the context but the subtext
it's not what you say but what you don't say.


this entry came out of the blue,
and such should make itself scarce.

p.s flea today was GOOOOO:D
pictures, once again, lag.

sam! why you lose your last resort phone?!?!?!??! -stares at you in shock. guess you gotta whip out your red (spectacles case shh i didnt say a thing) tellyphone.

when we live such fragile lives
it's the best way we survive

in the midst of the current effervescence,

decided to blog about recent post-rugby & post-school foodie/ chit-chat escapades..
finally visited THE Fiesta; yummylicious, cheapolicious fab Jap food (move over, Sakae. Fiesta has taken root in my fist-tiny pumping pink heart),
shopped at THE Popular for juicylicious fruity whistle scotchtape look-alikes (where art those skinny liquid paper?! fervent search for white stinky correcting friends nation-wide!),
failed attempts to down THE Mango PurIN (& Nette's famous Walkaways),
Boy Bitching (blogs &real-life living breathing species alike),
THE Neoprints (squeals!) looking Really Retarded girls (& the Gorgeous disguised as a sole brave Boy in cool dudezz shades),
another yummylicious discovery at TacoBell!

All located @ our friendly neighbourhood Toa Payoh & Heartland Mall respectively. Very Y indeed (:

today in Lit PC we talked about fears that we don't talk about..and I randomly thought about another example that slipped our forgetful minds (occupied with physical repulsiveness) – the fear that the very moment we say we love someone is the very instant when we jinx it up and once it spreads and takes hold, the etched affection becomes the reversed. maybe it's only me, but that is honestly why I don't really say I love my mom. (too many issues unraised.)

moving on to other nonsensical thoughts, have you ever sat in a bus and stared out of the window to find the resemblance of humans with the planted trees along the highways? apart from the clichéd links with the roots, check out the stems and branches..they look like family trees of different races! (okay I admit my imagination stereotypes) the distinction of races gets more evident if you think about different upbringing &environment and sets of values. okay getting quite preposterous. please just ignore me.

oh and resounding election messages to call out for more deVOTEes carried by circling vans are innovative and cute, but it somehow remotely feels like I'm a character in the Social Studies textbook. upon such comments, it bizarrely makes me feel like I'm going to land up in another place – the jail, or something equally criminal.

okay emptiness of house currently calls for safe and settling lword sesh for a while. shall be back to blog about weekend escapades soon (when I get my hands on our shots (pun? not! -pukes. (PUN, yes.)) (okay too many brackets) !)

depressing bt1 grades calls for some revamp.


Which O.C. Character Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty

ohs. positive various comments on her dress sense have been promptly ridiculed upon, leading to forceful shame and thus resulting in my undeserving likening to anna, sadly..

it's the fun of being human; you just carry right on although you know damn well it makes no difference.

tugging at heart strings
and tear ducts.

please stop it now

I sit right here, holding the years
And I count all the stars in space.

ice cream craze these days!

hardrock chocolate brownie with vanilla
(not a fan of vanilla but the chocolateyness made up for it. revisiting of appletini+more -thanks belle+dinah &BAD DAY = case of eyes wide shut : me walking around with my eyes open but system shut)

awfully chocolate
(VERY YUMMY+pretty decor! that fateful day saw us gobbling Thai food and being ahem, psycho girls. pretty fun though :)

almost tried scoopz but failed again
(looks at Steph. but i ate yummy ba chor mee at pp which i suspect gave me a nasty tummyache! ._.)

i can feel the fatttttts.
not a +point that i'm prolly the unsportiest girl awardee.

random fact #o2,
i do happen to be able to blush beet red! (extent is uncertain)
amazing fact surfacing only after 17 years and 5 months.

moving on to fact unrandom #o3,
i need to put a curb to the laziness and
studyyyy

in the meantime
some erm, 'girls night out'
and birthday sights
would be fun (:

p.s what's with the rain!
&the disappointments; i dont like the weather forecasts on my face. (get over them already Wendy)

p.p.s brandi carlile fall apart again.

p.p.p.s you really need to let me know.

fabled angst machine

today

- declared study-free day
- blog surfing + random chatter about past = fun
- finally found fellow Grey's Anatomy fans within the compounds of SAJC! (though discussion was held btween 2 members of the Shorty Club and the 1 and only Tally Club member at the Beachy Chicken Rice kopitiam where cleaners wore mismatched plastic bag kneecaps)
- mango purIN is always (:ness
- rugby match is engaging (understatement for girls screaming themselves hoarse and hurting palms)
- boys = what's new?
- to please stop living in denial, we are all gonna be here for you.

Mary's alive in the bright New York sky,
the city lights shine for her, above them I cry for her.
Everything's small on the ground below, down below.
What if I fall, then where would I go, would she know?

- time is spinning us round and when it does put us down, we wonder what shaky land is it we have landed onto.

Last time I talked to you
You were lonely and out of place
You were looking down on me
Lost out in space

Laying underneath the stars
Strung out and feeling great
Watch the red orange glow
Watch it float away

but maybe it wasnt that great.

-

weds

STEPHS BDAY!
fantabulous day shimmering (pun intended..ohgosh when was the last time we took neoprints! totally losing competitiveness in operating those damn outlandish machines!) with gaiety. all the laughter still resounding in my ears! Steph is one lucky girl and it must have been the first time this year ive ever seen anyone around me so genuinely happy.
it got to me and i went to bed smiling, feeling like a birthday girl.
many good buys too. retail therapy is always a plus point.
(:

da! i sudd rmb we took a pic outside Hard Rock. sudden jolt of memory! pls send me that sadly single picture i have of us!

ripped this off..the person above mentioned -points.

Your walk is: Pirate-esque Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

wht does it even mean..
._.

night, all!
may the shut-eye do you some good when you open them.

IF ONLY.
some things are better left unsaid.

ennui strikes,
tell me are we losing it.

yes i am,
as always.

HUANG WEITING I MISS YOU
but your eyes, being in shanghai (or not..SEE! tag me NOW!), will never see this.
oh, woe.
>:c
(many freaky movies i.e thai jap korean other asian horror flicks coming out! reminds me of you all the time. haunting me!)


STEPH CHEONG PHI PHI MS. STOCKS,
happy 18th
i Y you so.
(i am ze earliest!)

p.s Grey's Anatomy rocks more than your DCJ (which shall remain myseriously in initials! hahah) this is like White Oleander vs White Chicks.

cherry blossoms

take the lead ; 3 stars for fabfabfab moves and soundtrack but thin plot
tristan and isolde ; 3 stars for eye candy but waning interest

appletini ; 5 stars! we thank belle.

new cathay ; 4 stars! comfy theatre seats and great surround system. exciting upcoming stores (Ben&Jerry's cafe!) and flea market. (great buys! creditory to belle again..) thumbs up for budding local designers.

first in two weeks ; 4 stars! yes, they make or break our days secretly~ though we hate to admit it.


And in the air the fireflies
Our only light in paradise

this stars system makes me feel like some critic.


& God knows how critical i am of myself
on many aspects
as well as the slowly but surely gathering part on all yous exploitation of one me
minor and major
but i'll be there.

off to rest my eyes
and my case on you,
one of a few.
(:

L.O.V.E

(oh gosh does that mean i'm into ashlee simspon..)

1. when loved ones disappear/ go mia on me, my human proclivity plays a really short video play of them hurled across the aspalt for a few feet then landing in a pool of blood. then the cold sweat begins.

2. when sitting next to..vertically challenged people on the bus i always feel obliged to accompany them throughout the entire ride in case they feel that i move away because of..sensitive issues. but the real reason is that there's a baby cockroach making its way up.

3. was it worth it when it was over?

4. my bleak future is staring at me in my face in every waking moment. due to rapid depletion of competency in..every aspect that i had.

5. first time in two weeks due tmrw.

p.s is my image still unviewable?

picking up the pieces in your trail on the milkyway

okay just finished l word season 2..
it was completelycompletely moving.
i didnt even know tears were streaming down till my vision was blurred..
oh gosh.
blown away now..
hahas.
shall retreat back into creamy dreaminess.

remember the days we smiled.

one thing i cannot comprehend is why is my blogger in chinese?!?! been staring at it in perplexion every time i try blogging.

anyways
the episode of distressed housewives
(sitting in a row at bus stop all sipping mango puree (!!) and psychotic exercising to emulate potong healthy lifestyle, which yz reminded me!)
calls for some ammendments
closing of the first chapter
and the funeral march had to be called for with much regret
though i would be the sole attendance gussied in black.
no more in retrospects.

I don't believe In the smile that you leave When you walk away And say goodbye Well I don't expect The world to move underneath me But for God's sake Could you try I know that you're true to me You're always there You say you care I don't understand Your love is so cold It's always me that's reaching out For your hand And I've always dreamed That love would be effortless Like a petal fallin' to the ground A dreamer followin' his dream Where is your heart Cause I don't really feel you It seems so much is left unsaid So much is left unsaid But you can say anything Oh, anytime you need Baby, it's just you and me


applause for almost completion of lword season2 !
am slow, i know. but what does it matter,
shane is still cute.
HAHA.

so Steph cheers me up with her perpetual disgusting nature
obsessive littering and stealing my papillion
AND tadahhh anna sui (:
a very belated birthday to me
(maybe birthday presents should be distributed within different spans of time to achieve better effect HA HA kidding gimme my presents!)
i Y, thankewwws.
evening runs in secret route soon pls!
(:

that was my weekend smile.

(privy to weekend tears has decidedly been forbidden)


surprising bumping into C
saw us exchanging shocking gossipzxs
not like they actually matter
but DYOUKNOW
scientifically proven to be beneficial to health, they are inevitable in our lives and people who claim they do not gossip are d e l u d e d liars. it is an innate characteristic of all humans.
so there.
anyways, forgive my digression.
C we need to revive study in togetherness days!


random discovery : oldies make you want to listen to their lyrics more intently. try Bread's Diary. (no mocking pls)

i hope my new layout doesnt look weird!
was getting very sick of rachel bilson looking pensive in the previous one.
this picture's out of a photo shoot i stumbled upon and matches my blog title so..haha.


bffs in the world, what does it take?
(note, bff does not = bf)

timely (and untimely lack of) love.

results been an absolutely poor bunch..
swinging to all-time low during my vague existence in sajc,
a major letdown.
every single subject contained a frustrating section that would bring the overall down :c
SIGH.

this calls for shift of focuses, i say.
for more - and less - since it had always been one sided anyways. (fights temptation to roll eyes)

crafted weekly study seshs better work out!! (FREDA KWOK LYE ER, ahem.)


anyways this week's been same old, same old.
laughter fills the air?
so do disappointment.
this package is a real trick-or-treat, i say (again)

reading up about boys by certified therapists don't work, jiang tzu.
SHAKES HEAD.


thumbs midway up (or down, depending how optimistic, or pessimistic you are) for the college's Life concert. loved the slowww ones. (told you ive been newly injected with some school patriotism.) BUT post effects riding up out of it could be gravity defying (: new discoveries everyday. a mini me ran out up stage to confess i do, love You.

danceworks def thumbs up, extremely impressed but i guess the participants were rather depressed. guess the judges (and the audience, such as i) bought all the cuteness oozing out of all the little boysss!! oohs. HAHA. BUT! alas, all were fab (: jln kayu supper was littered with shocking coincidentality (?) and churning stomach. good and not good. ohkay both not good. but company of 8 was noisy and good.


<3 all the sushi and tofu consumed thus far this week! (current major cravings of all time haha)
& my commendable week where shopping only took place within the restricted grounds of Popular. stationery shopping, it was. its all about New Beginnings.

before this turns too random, i shall be off in bed to brave another school day.



the futility screams
leave it be.

how the tables turn.

so my week of frowns was turned upside down by the some of most trivial matters into a little gravity defying curve..

- newly launched project!
- chocolate mocha ice blended frm CAFE BB (hahah. nette, very inferior to perks pls.)
- schfriends and their random talks about bowel issues and giving away one's..flowers (allusion to F.R.I.E.N.D.S)
- friends, the remaining ones. they do come and go, i've learnt.
- momentarily being stranded but! getting to know a little more about a fewww people i shouldve better.
- soccer match (ohmyyy shocking undying love, loyalty and remarkable patriotism toward school. newfound interest in sch activities contributes to shocking factor.)
- 3hr bondage with the sole next of kin i have (yet whose lack of communication i share with recently remains profoundly perplexing)
- night talks (keep quiet and count your squares! :) that i am going to miss tonight ._. and morning walks (oh~ checking own nails out again? gasp! -covers mouth HAHA.)
..
etc.

despite AWFUL grades for blocks (as predicted but YIKES.)
and WHY cant they ever get the fringecuts (and everything else) right?!?!??!
the burning question of a 17 year old. (though interactions with frds might prove otherwise..)

decided to dot my fullstops at it
& eradicate expectations of people.
++ of the non existing second chances and if-onlys, no room for regrets.


\ make them stay.

colliding thoughts and
all your harshness

i need food down my gullet
and air down my windpipe
words out my mouth
sensibility from my head
warmth in my heart
strength in my calves
to sprint
to love
to think
to speak
to breathe
to survive
and understand
WHY.

the lacklustre of simple human capacity and perverseness.

syl, its our cue to laugh.

solitude solitaire

it's like you will never belong.

and if we keep swimming
maybe this will never die

we fail to keep in touch these days
i'm liquid cold, she's motor grey
hollowed by circumstance
that pushed us both away

-

if it makes us feel better
and alone,